Clarity and Vision in the Mud- Finding Congruence

“What you are, and who you are should provide greater clarity about where you have been and where you are headed. Although one distinguishes spiritual from physical nature, the ultimate unification of the two is the consequence of the struggle for internal, external and eternal – peace.”  T.F. Hodge

A couple weekends ago I went to my first open water “race”.  At a small lake in northeast Oklahoma, I learned I can swim a LONG way!  Planned to go 4500m, 3800m is Irondistance swim, so it would be the farthest I’ve ever gone.  Turned out farther many of us believe based on our swim times (over 3mi), and garmin devices n such. But no matter. It was long and worth it.  And you have a long time to think when all you have to do is swim.

For a few years now I have been defining and refining my purpose, or my Statement of Greatness.  It comes clear, in a flash, then becomes blurry.  When I let it guide me however, it comes easier, if impulsive.  Almost everything I am doing now is a part of the Statement.  From training for Ironman events, to coaching youth triathlon and friends, sharing my Arbonne business, learning/teaching/preaching (sorry) about health and exercise and food, motivating myself and family and anyone who needs it, challenging beliefs about what is possible.  Sometimes it is hardest to practice what you learn on yourself.  But there is so much great PROOF out there that you can live in CONGRUENCE, so I persist.  For me congruence is the key.  I want to be and live and play and work in congruence. Every day I am given a new opportunity to do this.  Walk the walk , talk the talk, however you want to put it, if I can get closer to living it out everyday that equals success to me.

That day in the lake was a great perspective for me.  We waded out into calf deep mud sucking at our feet to the start point, where you could feel the mud with your fingers as you swam.  Something in me kept wanting to grab the mud, like seeking  a pushoff, or a strange curiosity, regression to childhood, joy of the goo in my hands?!

It was a shock at first, because the water didn’t look muddy. As soon as my face was in the water, total darkness.  Then a breath and bright glorious CLEAR blue sky and sunshine. Then back into the darkness, back up to the light. Dark Light Dark Light, over and over for 3 miles. It was actually a comforting rhythm after awhile, no fear of what lay beneath, because when the light came it was so perfect, it’s comfort carried me on. Even in the dark I could feel the sun on my back so I knew it was still there.

At the end, I was covered in mud residue, looked a little pirate-esque and had what seemed to be permanent mud in my fingers and toes.  I looked worn out, squashed goggle eyed face, but couldn’t keep from grinning as Patrick captured my emersion from the depths.

The swim was along a smooth water line, call it my congruence line.  Above it total clarity, below it dark murkiness.  To complete the swim meant embracing both, being ok with both.  It takes both to move you in the direction of your Greatness.  Not stopping because things aren’t clear anymore, not stopping because things are perfectly clear either.  Moving through both I think will take me to some amazing places, and I’m guaranteed to not arrive looking fabulous, but I am guaranteed joy at the end!

My Best Look Ever.

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