Jumping Anyway.

“I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to. But the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you’re going, but you know that so long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you.”
― C.JoyBell C

South Sister Climb

The view is worth it! Keep Climbing!

Now that we are here in Bend, there is a sense of accomplishment and comfort, knowing we have landed exactly where we were meant to be.  Of course, I have confirmational bias… I look for and see proof EVERYWHERE.  You do surely get what you expect and what you are looking for.  Ever notice a piece of litter, get annoyed and suddenly you might as well be living in a trashpit? (maybe that is just me lol) That is one reason I insist people STOP looking for the sad and bad stories in general, not to lose touch with the ability to be empathetic and offer support and ideas when needed, but because it seriously will expand into your world so that is ALL YOU SEE Believe and KNOW. 

Ok I digress, but it really is a hot topic with me to change peoples perspectives, from negativity or woe is me or victimhood or excuses, to one of gratitude, hope, seeing good and more good, and watching that flourish in their lives.

So my point was, that we have landed right where we wanted, but not where we ever imagined or planned even just a few years ago.  Now we are moving on to the Now What’s (cute little guys if I do say so myself)  Many things I’ve not been afraid to jump into, didn’t need proof for, things like Arbonne, triathlon, marathons, raising a family, starting our own vet business, fundraising and so on.  Ok well maybe in hindsight I can say that.  YES I had NO IDEA what would happen with any of those, but I/we did it anyway, no experience,  not knowing the outcome, but only through jumping off the ledge could we soar!  I believe we need to constantly find those ledges and jump off.  All summer I’ve been looking for a new ledge:-)  Think I have found it and I have no clue what I am doing.  But I do have proof that I never died from any previous jumps, they only led me to more wonderful, at least interesting things.  So I am taking that with me as I jump into a new world. Thinking podcasting and beyond…. So excited and scared and looking forward to the madness and fun that will come of it!  It will be called “BENDing Perspective”.  I will keep you posted:-) Are you on a ledge right now, just waiting? need a push?  a safety net? Let me know if there is anything I can do to get you off and soaring!

the Great Shower debate

SwimBikeRunEatSleep

SwimBikeRunEatSleep&????

“Better keep yourself clean and bright; you are the window through which you must see the world.”  George Bernard Shaw

I’m sitting in the dentist office with my two girls, waiting for their appointment.  It is cold outside, so I get to wear a sweater, boots, jeans, big coat and ear warmers, aka my disguise.  All of this serves as great cover, almost might divert attention from the recent sweatfest on my bike in the warm house, and in a hurry to get out the door, just layered on new clothes, dabbed a little makeup on to hide the blotchy red sweatface and off I go.  No, that is not freshly washed wet hair, it is sweathair.  Hard to tell the difference eh?  Ok maybe not, maybe everyone knows by now after years of this stay and work and workout at home life I lead, that I am rarely put together in any sort of form that most “girls” would be proud of.   So, funny that I should read an article while waiting about working from home, and the pitfalls (in this guys’s case, not shaving, looking scraggly, not showering…thinking no one notices)  Got me thinking.

Not sure how I fell down this slippery slope.  I remember when I started Arbonne, it was great to get out of mom clothes and dress nice and style my hair and wear makeup that wouldn’t be smeared off in a minute and feel “normal”, and not like a milk cow.  I rarely would go anywhere without properly putting some effort into the shell the world sees.   I admit it felt good, and I did walk around with a certain extra confidence, even if the high heels I always wore weren’t so cozy, they were who I was, then.

I started doing more work only from home over the last several years, mainly to support my hours training for triathlon, only venturing to town for obligatory errands and kids activities.  Except now, I was almost always in workout clothes, or just changed, still sweaty, dried sweat, no makeup, hair in ponytail. Same ponytail. You know the one:-)  I tell myself I should go ahead and get on my horse now too, since I’m already not trying to put on any sort of airs of cleanliness anymore!

I do enjoy and promote the benefits of working at home, not having to decide what to wear and fix the hair and such, we stay at home/work at home moms surely have the freedom.  Just not sure that I shouldn’t put in a TAD more effort?!  I admire the moms who are put together, have some sense of style and obviously make an effort.  I think their husbands must appreciate it.  I know mine does when I try a little!  But why go through all that when in a few hours I’m going to be in the pool or running or biking again? WHY??!! It’s the daily question.  I promise though I do occasionally shower, whether I need it or not;-)  Sometimes a bath that is beneficial for training recovery.

So when you see me, you know I HAVE thought about it, and most likely have another sweat session coming, so I opted out of giving a darn, again.   When you see me with all my hairs did, and my “face” on, you know it is either a Recovery Day or I only had one workout and got done early enough to justify the effort.   I may try an experiment for the next week or so, see if I can get that Corie back, and the habit and expectation… I guess it’s not the worst thing if I don’t,  my confidence comes from somewhere else now, I’m just curious if I can blend the two Corie’s….

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